Spinning Through Life – My First Public Story (September 30, 2019)

Last year, I was featured on Courtney Phillips blog

Personally, I was a bit scared to share my story here at the time. As time has gone on, our readers know most of my experiences.

I truly hope this will help others to see that trauma and diagnoses does not determine your outcome. You can break cycles, move forward in life, and achieve your goals!

Break the stigma

Courtney is very inspirational. She suffers from multiple traumas and anxiety and she is a warrior and an advocate for mental health awareness and healing.

She was, at that time, Mrs. District of Columbia. Today she holds the title of Ms. Virginia.

Courtney also works with an organization near to my heart called RUNWAY2LIFE (

Alicia Amsler is the director of RUNWAY2LIFE, Alicia is also the owner of Alicia’s Day Spa in Chester, Virginia. RUNWAY2LIFE focuses on suicide prevention, speaking out about mental illness, helping to bring awareness to mental health, while fundraising to help those in need.

I encourage everyone to look into both Courtney’s blog and RUNWAY2LIFE foundation. Both are making a difference in many people’s lives, including mine!

This Was My First Ever Publicly Told Story

This article is directly from

To read the entire article you will have to follow the link below

Emmely Byrd deals with dissociative issues, recklessness, impulsive behavior, abandonment issues, bi-polar, depression, anxiety, PTSD and suicidal tendencies. She’s been working to come to terms with all these labels and that of what mental struggle and illness mean to her.

𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘂𝗶𝘀𝗵?

I relate my trauma to being very young and feeling unloved by my mother. She was essentially never there for me. It took me until she was on her death bed to forgive her. I don’t want to blame her, but it definitely was childhood traumas that led to my trying to please everyone and taking responsibility for everyone. This has been constant: taking care of everyone and never putting my feelings first or taking care of myself or thinking about my own happiness in life.

𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲?

I see my doctors regularly. I’m very in tune with my moods, my body changes, both mental and physical. It’s hard to help others understand how I am not a victim of trauma; I am a survivor and telling my story is not for attention or pity. It’s for healing and helping others. Continued care, self-awareness and honestly with myself and others is what helps me to maintain. If I mentally can’t cope with something or something is a trigger to me, I may have to reschedule and I know that is ok because I have to come first. I have to be my own caretaker.

𝗢𝗻𝗲 𝗽𝗶𝗲𝗰𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗱𝘃𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀 𝘁𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗿 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗸 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲:

If you even remotely feel or think you need help, seek it. Don’t wait, don’t feel stupid, don’t think it will fix itself, don’t think it’s a dumb decision to talk about it. Don’t feel like you will be stereotyped. Depression, bipolar, and mental illnesses have such a stigma attached to them and are used in such loose terms, but they are real. We suffer! Your feelings matter. What is going on in your mind matters. You matter!!!

Read the full-length interview with Emmely here:

Where am I now? Much happier! I have my days, I am in tune with my mind, body, feelings, and how to know when to take a break from the world.

I stay away from the news. I am not on a cocktail of medications. I am working hard as an advocate. Although I have these medical diagnoses, they do NOT define me. I do not use them as an excuse. I study and research them. I bring awareness to them.

I am a survivor, a warrior, a child of God!

Sometimes when we think our lives are falling apart what we don’t see, is that they might just be falling into place. LJ Vanier

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